Friday, May 06, 2005

Spiritual Overthinking

Do you ever find your mind wandering when praying? I have this problem. Not that I'm not focused on my prayer...but I begin to focus on being focused on prayer. I've always had this issue and I'm not sure how to stop it. I'll be praying earnestly and then I begin thinking about the prayer I'm sending up and wondering if it is clear, concise and unselfish. Then I forget where I was in the prayer, apologize to the Lord and begin again...only now I'm obsessed with my prayer delivery.

Am I the only one?

Don't even get me started on actual conversations with people. I think if I can just clear up the prayers with God, maybe I'll be able to carry a conversationwith a person without wandering off or focusing on their mole.


jes said...

i do this too. except, i DO find myself with a wandering mind while i'm trying to pray. sometimes it's wandering on the delivery of, like you said, but other times i'll start talking to God about something, and it will remind me of something else, and before i know it, i'm not even talking to God anymore, i'm thinking about the latest issue of US Weekly or whatnot.

this has really become an issue for me, because i'm like, "Hello! Whoa! Where did that come from?" And i'll apologize to God and start praying from either the beginning or where I left off.

Don't they make medicine for this? I think it's called Ridlin.

Jennboree said...

I am so glad I'm not the only one! And I do wander on to other subjects totally not related to my prayer. Wasn't sure if I should fess up to it so early in my blogging career.

Ridlin for APD...Attention Prayer Disorder. That'd work.

jes said...

jenn, it's okay to admit your deepest, darkest secrets here. i mean, you're only telling the Internet. ;)